I've found a friend who died for me

Didn't go to church yesterday.

I feel stupid for what I've done, but there is no condemnation in Jesus christ so i shall not condemn myself. On the day itself, i was ready to go and everything and was changing clothes, but i looked fat and stupid in every single cloth and i feel very uncomfortable wearing it, then it hought of people in city Hall and how they wore their clothes, i suddenly felt a rush of emberrassement. Now that i think of it, i thought it was stupid. I think the devil is just trying to stop me from going to church because of a stupid reason.

"But seek first the kingdom of God and ALL the
things shall be added to you!"
-Mathew 6:33

So i just cooked up some stupid reasons and i didn't go to church on that day. But now, i realised that looking good isn't the most important thing on earth. Yes, looks are quite important but i don't think we should ignore the fact that God doesn't look at our looks but our inner heart. He looks at how much we rely on Him and how much we love Him. Another thing is that although some people may have the looks and the intelligence, they do not have God Himself. Because God + me = the whole world.

So never feel bad about yourself like what i did and be proud of Daddy's works!

One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand:
one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.

When the last Scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only One set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and Saddest moment in his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it." Lord, You said that once I decided to follow You, You'd walk with me all the way.

But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when I needed You ost You would leave me."

The Lord replied," My precious, precious child, I love you and I would never leave you.

During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only One set of Footprints, it was then that I carried you."

Yesterday when i was going to school as usual, i saw a man wearing a t- shirt which wrote "shalom workers" at the back. You know what shalom means? Its peace in hebrew. Pastor Prince told us during a service.

Today in school we had nafa test. 2.4km. It was really quite hard. On the second round my knees hurt A LOT! And my left shoe's shoe lace dropped of at the 2rd round. Lol. I really wanted to give up as i was getting really tired. But i just told myself that Daddy is just beside me encouraging me to continue and i can just feel angel Gabriel beside me encouraging me. So i was thinking to myself that Jesus had to bear all that pain on that cross, being tired means nothing.

While running, i had the tune " Im held by your love" in my head, so i looked up in the sky while running as usual and i sort of visualised myself running towards heaven. That was really a fine moment for me.
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I got the 7th place in the end. That's just a beautiful number. 7 means rest and finish in the bible, God finished everything on the 6th day and rested on the 7th day. So after i got the number, i could finally rest. Today Ms Chan was telling us about some people being tired coming to school. I never felt tired in the morning when i went to school, althought my phsical body may be tired, but my heart is resting in God's presence. Which makes me feel really peaceful. =)

Today during weight taking, i realised i just lost half a kilogram. I know it may not seem much, but it really is amazing for me. On monday after attending church, i decided to put all my trust in the Lord and i believe He will help me. So every time my heart grows weary or start to suspect about whether God will ever help me, ill say to myself "I put my trust in You Daddy".
And within 4 days, i lost half a kg! Praise the Lord! =).

I make Jesus participate in every single thing in my life, i tell Him everything. He's just like a best friend of mine and whenever i am sad or angry, ill tell Him about it and ask for His advice and seek for His voice.

-Im held by Your love-
New creation church.

(Im held by Your love
Im held by Your strength

On your shoulders You bore me
by Your faith I stand
Chersished by You Lord
Treasured in Your sight
So close to Your heart
held firm in your hands x2)

So awesome is Your love
So mighty is Your hand
On eagles wings You carry me
Your grace shall be my strength

So perfect is Your love
You sacrificed Your son
amazing love reach out to me
with joy to You I come

Not by my wisdom
not by my strength
gently You guide me
take me by hand

Totally surrendered
Jesus I am Yours
now and forever
In christ I now stand

(So awesone is your love
so mighty is your hand
On eagles wings You carried me
Your grace shall be my strength

So perfect is Your love
You sacrificed Your son
amazing love reach out to me
with joy to You I come x2)

Im held by Your love
Im held by Your strength x2

sumtimes my heart worry because of school and friends, but i always remember to rest in Him, and He will help me out of the darkness.

Pastor Gabriel

Jesus saw people as sheep without a shepherd
and He had compassion with them.

Phil 3:13-14

-The devil wants us to look at our past and feel bad about our failures.
-It doesn't matter if you failed a subject, do not look back. Look to the front and try your best knowing that Daddy is with you.
-Do not look back at your past glory either. You will not be able to look on anymore. Move on from the past.

The best is yet to be. Do not be held back by the past failures and glory.

Be conscious that Jesus is with me, His rod and staff comforts me. Be conscious that his presence is with me.

Rod & Staff:
Rod & Staff comforts the sheep as the rod chases the wild
animals away and the staff rescues the sheep and hooks the
sheep up when it falls from cliffs.

Deutronomy 31:6-8

He will never leave you nor forsake you.

Let God have the last word, involve the Lord in the topics you study.Ask God for His advice and TRUST Him.

Knowing that God is with me, tell Him about your thoughts and feelings as when you do so, you go to the Lord's presence for He will never leave you nor forsake you.

God not only goes with you, He will go before you.

Isaiah 52:12
-Lord is also my rear guard

Rear Guard(in hebrew):
Asaph. ( To gather or collect)

Not only does He protects my back, he also picks up
all my failures and the broken pieces I have left
behind and He will put it on His body as he hangs on the cross.

He is the one who stands between my past and me.
When i turn back, I will only see Him pointing me to Him.

Don't let my exam results be a reflection of my future, don't let the works of my hands be a reflection of who i am.Let whatever I do be a reflection of God's glory in my life.

Matt 5: 14-16
-"You are the light of the world"(Like a moon as I reflect Daddy's light, i do not have a light on my own, but i reflect the light from Daddy, making me shine like a moon)
-Remain in christ Jesus and I will be like a moon.

i have created this blog so that people hu needs to be comforted by words can cum here and feel good. When u think u're alone with no one to help u, when u think no one cares about u, think again! He is always there, beside u, infront of u and behing u as a rear guard.
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Daddy, i noe that u will always be faithful even though i am not. I put all my trust in you and even though almost all of my family members have experienced this bad thing. But i noe that such things will never happen to me because u are my daddy, my beloved daddy. I pray that i will be able to lose weight without makin any efforts because i have u, with u, i only have to rest in u and do nothing as the Lord is the shepherd i shall not want. By the end of May, i will be back to normal again. In Jesus Name, AMEN!!